The Existential Crises of Trump

President Donald Trump is a proud man. He never admits failure or wrongs. He believes he comes from more superior genes than us. His life has been one where he has always been wealthy and privileged. He, I am sure, has been told by the world that he is special. His family lore has told of the rise of this ‘great’ family. The lore would exclude, as most family lore does, the dirt and shenanigans that happened along the way. He is convinced he is the white knight in shining armor descended from greatness.
So the question, why does he have a hard time denouncing the alt-right, is answered: that is his heritage. His grandfather was arrested during a Klan march on Washington DC. His grandfather was a very fine man. Thus this makes him a very fine man. So of course there were fine people marching with the alt-right in Charlottesville. Otherwise he has a very flawed heritage and he by default would be a flawed man. His money does not come from a good place. His election does not come from a good place. His whole life has a stench to it. He stands as the emperor with no clothes and the truth of his small hands is exposed for all to see.
He must fight as though his life depended on it. But in essence it is something more than his life that is at stake for him. The whole of his existence is at stake. The life of his ancestors is questioned. His view of who he is, is questioned. The life of his memory is questioned. His lineage is questioned. His worldview is questioned. And because of this he will fight to make white right no matter the cost; even if the cost is a nation. He has no choice.
But this is the rub, as any good existentialists would tell him. Because our existence is a happenstance and flawed creation, the only thing we have left is choice. He has the freedom not to repeat the patterns of our nation and our families. We have the choice to defy the chaos by making a meaning in the chaos. He can make his existence have meaning by choosing to change course. All of the flawed nature of his fortune and family can have brought him to the point of advocating for change and challenge to the system on which he has relied. He is free to choose. So far he has chosen to continue to justify his existence by not questioning any of his past or present deeds. And he proactively defends them as if in a death grip of existential horror. It is said that after he reaffirmed the alt-right as having fine people he stated he felt free. He is choosing to pretend he is the white knight when the emperor has lost all of his clothing.
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